Stupid Momma
What a FISHHHH.....!!!!!!!Just delete one long posting of my return from maternity leave. Whoaaaa... And I was pouring my heart out just to loose it. Damn!!!! Shhh...shhhh...inhale..exhale...I'm trying to calm down now. But aaaarrggghhhh.....still a bit upset....hiks hiks......
Anyway, again, I'm writing that today's my first day back at the office after maternity leave. Now I have to share my schedule among Gaizka's loud cries, joyous smile, and wet nappies with paperworks and closing timetable. Fiuuuhhhh whatta tough one.
For the past three months my routine -besides nursing gaizka- was reading...trying to find as much information as I can on baby stuff. Being me....a girl who doesn't really fancy babies... I was very awkward with Gaizka. So, again, being me...a girl who studies and believe in what I've been told, I was exhilarated with what my books told me and thought that I could become baby whisperer for my Gaizka, by harnessing points learnt from those books.
To my surprise, nursing babies is unique and there's no such thing as exact theory. So there I was stumbling in awe and deep confusion of what to do. Now, after three months, I'm amazed that I'm still hangin on and keep my sanity haha.... Lots of stories, which I might share in the future. There are frights, joy, tears, smiles, anxiety. Basically there were utterly mixed feelings, which I don't want to exchange for anything in the world (though it has some bitter parts here and there).
Yes, I am a mother, stupid perhaps...but very proud of it :))
posted by Ira @ 4:06 PM
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